.....Of surviving my very own TYPHOON HAIYAN.....

         

          On Wednesday night, 14.11.2013 (as related to me later), I suddenly collapsed and slipped into a coma in the house. With the help of our neighbours, the Hamid Family, who called for an ambulance, I was rushed to HSA (Zon Kritikal). The doctors there, were clueless as to what was afflicting me. They even suggested that I be brought home to expire. But the Head of the Household was firm and adamant and demanded that I be examined thoroughly and treated accordingly. Thus began my own personal battle, akin to fighting the vicious and strong Typhoon Haiyan which was leaving a trail of havoc in the Philippines at that same time. A multitude of tests were done on my poor body, including Intubation, the Lumbar Puncture and the MRI. Initially, they diagnosed that I was afflicted with meningitis, but later after doing countless blood tests, they concluded that I was afflicted with the highly dangerous "E-COLI SEPSIS".

          I spent one week (14.11.2013 - 21.11.2013) in hospital (various wards),including the ICU, the ward in Block Cempaka, and  the last place I landed myself in was at Bed 8, PPI, HSA, JB beginning from 16.11 2013 till the day I was discharged. I can only recall events that occurred from 16.11.2013 onwards. I recalled being fed intravenously with milk and on three of those days, I was down with high fever. My Princess was on hand to look into my needs. On a couple of days, the Physiotherapist taught me several exercises that I should do to regain the strength in my legs. I really couldn't walk unaided then and had to use the 'walker' to move about. Anyhow, on Thursday, 21.11.2013, the Specialists and doctors concluded that I was fit enough to be discharged. So, at 6 PM, that day, my Princess brought me  home. I was given a big bunch of medicines, which were to taken religiously, according to prescription, and I was instructed to go for periodical reviews at the Klinik Kesihatan Taman Seri Orkid in Skudai.

       My REAL problems started when I was at home. I really had to learn to be independent, lest I 'll get too much on peoples' nerves. Thus far, I have managed very well. I can almost do anything by myself now.

  

 

 

                                          

                

.....Of Tolerating Perennial Excruciating Pain.....

          Since 09.10.2013, according to my records, I have been relatively pain free, save for the 'Tarik-tarik Syndrome' which occurred on 19.10.2013. Needless to say, a whole lot of Wutongku patches were applied on the affected areas.

         BUT, this good state of affairs was not long-lasting. On the evening of 08.11.2013, after exactly a month, I started to feel hopelessly under the weather. I had a very bad tummy ache and my body was 'paining all over'. This was followed by disturbed sleep with lots of  of urine being issued that night. My sleep was highly disturbed.....I am repeating myself, I know. But that was the true situation which I had to endure.

          On Saturday, 09.11.2013, I went to get the relevant medications for my condition, from my Doctor. By that time, I was already running a high fever (39 degrees C) and the body pain was intolerable. I was also feeling nauseous. The reduced intake of food and fluids, resulted in me being extremely bloated up and I was also constipated. Oh God! I really felt awful on 10.11.2013 and 11.11.2013. My Doctor had warned me that my body temperature would be fluctuating, and it certainly did. Yesterday, I practically slept the whole day through. I also consumed several bananas to help with my constipation problem.

          By this morning, I feel that the aches and pain, the bloated up feeling and the fever are slowly easing off. Syukur Alhamdulillah. Actually, I had undergone almost the same irritating condition in early October 2013. Are all these discomforts related to my 'primary condition'? Oh, I don't know! SIGH!

          BUT the worst part of it all, is that there's absolutely NO ONE around to take really good care of me.....SAD.....Beginilah nasib, diriku yang malang, Oh, Tuhan!......Boo Hoo Hoo!

.....Remembering Significant November Dates.....

1st November 2013 - His 69th special day. Many Happy Returns Of The Day.

3rd November 2013 - My late Mom's (Allahyarhamah Aisah Bte Abdullah) 38th death anniversary. Al-Fatihah.....Ameen.

 

11th November 2013 - One year ago, today, Along and Angah were released into the lake at Hutan Bandar, Mutiara Rini, Skudai.

21st November 2013 - My beloved sibling, Allahyarhamah Roseana Binti Abdul Rahim (21.11.1951 - 21.09.2010), would have turned 62 years old on this date. Alfatihah.....Ameen.

.....More Reminiscing.....

Nostalgia  seems to have overwhelmed me, of late.....Hmmmmm.....

TOWER TALL

"I gave my love a diamond, whisper slow
I made my love a promise, tower tall
I said, one day just wait
I'll buy the world for you
One day you'll see, 
my promise will come true.

She looked down at the diamond, whisper slow
and said it sparkles brighter than them all
She said I'll need no more
as long as I may live
You gave me love
What greater gift can anyone give?

And so I made a promise, in reply
A promise that I will honour, till I die
The love I have for you, maybe the whisper slow
My love will be forever 
TOWER TALL...."

(Gene Pitney)


WITHOUT YOU

"No, I can't forget this evening
On your face as you were leaving
But I guess that's just the way the story goes..
You always smile, but in your eyes your sorrow shows..
Yes, it shows...

No, I can't forget tomorrow
When I think of all my sorrow
When I had you there, but then I let you go..
And now, it's only fair that I should let you know..
What you should know...

I can't live if living is without you
I can't live, I can't give anymore
I can't live if living is without you
I can't give, I can't give anymore....."

(Harry Nilsson)

.....Reminiscing.....

Remembering my campus 'sweetheart', Mochtar SA. Thank you for the bitter sweet memories, Sham.....

ALL OVER THE WORLD

"All over the world, people must meet and part,

There's someone like me, feeling a pain in their hearts...

Some may meet again, under the same bright star,

It may be some night, you'll come back from afar,

Who cares if tonight, I don't know where you are...

Are you thinking of me now?

Missing having me around..

If you have forgotten me, my world will come tumbling down...

All over the world, others are sad tonight,

There's someone like me, watching the sun's fading light...

All over the sky, there is the same warm glow,

Here under that sky I'm wanting you to know,

Wherever you are that I still love you so....."

(Francoise Hardy)

.....Found, virtually.....

I found a long-lost good old friend virtually, today. Needless to say, a whole lot of nostalgic memories came rushing back.....Those were the days!

.....A Failure.....

A 'Failure' of the 1st degree - that's Me!

Sob, sob, sob.....Boo hoo hoo!

(^_^,)

.....Remembering Significant October Dates.....

10th October
On this date in 1982, my Princess was born.....

12th October 2013
My youngest sibling, Allahyarhamah Rodziah Binti Abdul Rahim aka Odi (12.10.1965 - 24.06.1979), would've turned 48 on this date. Al-Fatihah.....

16th October
My one and only brother, Allahyarham Abdul Razak Bin Abdul Rahim (25.04.1956 - 16.10.2004) expired on this date, nine years ago. Al-Fatihah.....

19th October 2013
My sixth sibling, Rashidah Binti Abdul Rahim aka Chip, turned 54 on this date.....

.....Feeling Miserable with a Capital 'M'.....

          I'm feeling Miserable, with a capital 'M' today. Sad to say, that I'm still about to touch on, and write about more 'unhappy' things, or are they, the 'same old unhappy things'? The latter, I reckon! It looks like 'Happiness', in the true sense of the word, has been deluding me, for the longest time. The catalysts for my 'down' feeling, are two-pronged this time around. 

          One, it's the 'unknown' (really!) state of my being. The so-called 'unknown', honestly, has triggered a lot of 'negativity' within me (and I do mean A LOT!). I'm aware that certain 'things' are practically inevitable, but still!.....It's disheartening.....really, really disheartening!

          The second 'sadness-inducing' factor is best left unwritten, unsaid and unexplained. Suffice it to say that I've long given up on this matter. It's just a mere waste of my breath and my energy to be overly concerned with this state of affairs. Sigh!

          As a means of taking my mind off  these 'sickening thoughts and feelings', I have been channeling my energy into doing my own therapy, in the form of sewing some pretty (if I may say so, myself!) patchwork pieces. They definitely do bring some respite to me.....Thank goodness! 

.....The Sarigar Curse.....

I'm sad to say that the Rahim Progeny have been living under a 'curse', since the demise of both our beloved parents in the '70s. I have dubbed this phenomenon, 'The Sarigar Curse', named after the evil perpetrator, "Sarigar" (not his real moniker). I'm really certain that this sad state of affairs is the result of the 'witchcraft', which had been cast upon us, by the aforesaid specimen. Ever since the passing of our beloved Dad and Mom, the nine Rahim Offspring, seemed to be sadly drifting apart. We always seemed to be 'squabbling' at one time or another, and these squabbling may be 'loud' at times, or 'silent with very strong undercurrents'. Gone are the love, the joy, the laughter and the fabulously good times that we used to share during our growing up years. A few of us have literally turned into 'strangers' and 'monsters', forever getting into each other's nerves and throats. Our lives are literally in a 'turmoil'. 

It's disheartening to note that good wholesome family life is practically non-existent. Only 'dysfunctional families' rule. Sad to say that the 'Rahim Lineage' is not being maintained and procreated, so to speak, as would have been the ardent wish of our late parents.  I know, and I'm aware that all these sad state of affairs and occurrences have been 'written  sejak azali lagi' by Allah SWT, but still, I can't help but feel extremely sad that a certain vengeful 'psycho' can wreak so much 'havoc' and cast so much 'unhappiness' on all of us, who are truly the unfortunate victims of circumstances. If he had harboured anger and dissatisfaction with our parents, why then make us, the 'younger generation', suffer?

My fervent hope is that he'll be getting his just desserts in the afterlife. As for now, the extremely irreversible damage has been done. The remaining Rahim Progeny is still disintegrating further and it seems that no end is in sight for this sorry state of affairs. It's as if there's absolutely no real and true 'sibling love' that exists in our hearts, anymore! It's really and honestly SAD! (^_^,)!!!!!



.....Killing Me Softly.....

     The same old nonsensical stuff seem to be 'killing me softly'. Stuff related to certain specimens, stuff related to the CBs plus the other stuff too. Topmost crap on the list is their individual sickening attitude, which have been slowly sucking the life out of me. Indifference, utter laziness, taking things too much for granted plus indulging in useless and wasteful activities, have been 'crap', that I have to contend with, since time immemorial.

     Needless to say, I've been feeling miserably disappointed, beyond measure. This accumulated stress and tension have triggered a whole lot of negative reaction within me.....physically, mentally and emotionally. Of late, especially, I feel that my health is taking a massive 'downward tumble'. I've been bugged, at one time or another, by a multitude of health issues, in the likes of:-

1.   Vertigo (Dizziness)
2.   Endless yawnings
3.   Flatulence
4.   Bodily aches and pain/cramps
5.   Creaking joints
6.   Carpel tunnel syndrome
8.   Diarrhoea
9.   Urinary tract infection
10. Night sweat/excessive body heat
11. Fever, flu and cough
12. Extreme fatigue and
13. Severe Depression

     A few of these may be related to the Big M phenomenon, but the rest are definitely stress induced. I can safely bet that my personal doctor cum confidante thinks that I'm only 'psychologically ill'. Me? A 'psycho'? Hmmmmm..... I've also been labelled a hypochondriac, BUT one thing's for sure, the illnesses and discomfort that have been hounding me are certainly for real. I'm not just faking things, okay? As long as the 'triggering factors' still exist, I'll most definitely, be 'killed softly'.....SIGH!

.....Of Feeling Downright Rotten.....

Yeah, smiling while hiding my sadness and PAIN certainly is not an easy task to do! Oh! I don't know! Of late, since turning 64 precisely, I find that my health condition has been like a Yo-Yo. Some days, I'll be feeling so sick and so fatigued, and on other days, I'll be a-okay and feeling on top of the world, so to speak. Since early September 2013, I've been feeling so damned rotten. My whole being felt dismally unhealthy, what with the excruciatingly aching shoulders, arms and legs. A certain brand of medicinal patches were applied on the painful spots, all over my body. These patches did their bit to dispel the discomfort. Accompanying the aches and pain, was the flatulence problem, which is equally irritating. Slatherings of  medicated oil were applied, so as to achieve some measure of relief. I honestly do not know as to what exactly is going on, in and within my constitution. Most times, I feel so damned hopeless, having to contend with this 'roller-coaster' kind of feeling - feeling utterly sick, alternating with short spasms of feeling good. My confidante's (Dr H) diagnosis, made on Friday, 6th September 2013, was that my 'unstable emotional and mental being' is playing havoc with my 'physical self'. He urged me to take things easy and not to delve too much into things. My hope is that his diagnosis is correct, but then, only Allah SWT knows the real truth, and He's certainly not telling..... just yet.

Actually, I 'm trying my level best not to think too much about 'things', by keeping myself busy and really sweating it out. But sometimes, my 'chronic fatigue' gets in the way. Sigh! Nonetheless, during the times when I'm feeling good, I'll really be doing lots of things - menial and mundane chores plus my hobby-related activities, alike.