.....Lamentations.....

The year 2018 has started off very badly for me, health wise. Since Thursday, 18.1.18, I haven't been in the pink of health. The flu bug had 'bitten' me and before long, I was down with the 'cough of the century'. This was accompanied by the expulsion of tons and tons of phlegm, which have left me feeling totally exhausted. I have been to see the Doctor, and have been faithfully consuming the prescribed medications. But to this very day, the persistent cough is still causing havoc for me. Today, is Day 13 that I have to tolerate this really annoying malady! Sigh!



.....Gone, But Never Forgotten.....

 

 

 

 

 

It was forty four years ago, on this day, that my beloved late Dad, Abdul Rahim Bin Narat, breathed his last. He had succumbed to a very fatal third heart attack, on the afternoon of 25th January 1974. It was a public holiday on that day, it being Awal Muharram (as it was called then), and I was hundreds of miles away. I was, at that moment, furiously revising my notes, in preparation for my final exams at Universiti Sains Malaysia, in Minden, Pulau Pinang. So you can imagine the shock I had when the University's Security Guard, came to my room to relay the devastating piece of news to me. The admin staff and my friends rallied around me and my sister, Roseana, who was also studying in the same uni. They made arrangements for us to fly home to be with the family and to attend the funeral. My beloved Dad left behind a grieving widow and nine children to mourn his loss. He was, without doubt, the best husband to his wife, and the greatest Dad to all his children. He provided amply for us all and he made sure that all of children had the best education, possible. It sure is a priceless legacy! Thank you, Bah! 

 

Dearest Bah, we miss you so today, and everyday!

 

Celebrating my birthday in 1969 

.....Just Letting Off Steam!.....

 

 

 

 

Not a day passes by that I don't feel some kind of discomfort or other.

 

It's "EITHER THIS OR THAT!"

 

or

 

It's "EITHER THAT OR THIS!"

 

This phenomenon is really getting me down!

 

I'm bushed! 

 



.....Expressing Feelings From The Deepest Core Of Me.....

It's only been ten days into the new year, 2018, and already I'm feeling that there's been absolutely no change whatsoever, in everything, particularly, in this unfortunate situation I'm in. I'm still bogged down with endless chronic pain, from the tip of my hair to the tip of my toes, literally! It is a daily occurrence, honestly! It follows suit that my daily mood will be a nightmare! It's mostly Down, as opposed to being Up! It is sickening, I can tell you! Most times, I have to resort to these three things, (my BFF) to help me get some measure of relief. SIGH! What have I done to deserve such a predicament? Perhaps , never in my life before, have I done anything good! That might just be the reason, and now, I'm paying the price! SAD!

 

 

My BFF



 

 Feeling sad!

.....Sighs Of A Survivor / Keluh Kesah Seorang Survivor .....

 

 

 

Saya telah mendapat gelaran "Survivor" pada 26.6.2009. Kini saya telah memegang gelaran tersebut selama lapan tahun setengah. Sepanjang tempoh tersebut, saya telah menjalani kesemua rawatan yang di wajibkan, serta menghadiri setiap sesi 'follow-up' dengan pakar perubatan serta pegawai-pegawai perubatan yang bertauliah. Saya juga telah menjalani ujian mammogram serta ultrasound, secara berkala. Oh ya, saya telah dianugerahkan penyakit ini oleh Allah SWT, kerana saya mempunyai 'a strong family history'. Saya berasa bersyukur kerana telah dianugerahkan dengan dugaan ini, kerana saya percaya, "Allah SWT only tests His strongest soldiers."

 

Sunnguhpun, saya mempunyai kekuatan yang tersendiri, saya tidak boleh nafikan bahawa adakalanya, saya akan berasa sungguh 'depressed'. Disetiap ambang tahun baru, perasaan saya akan menjadi bercelaru.....kegembiraan dan kesedihan akan bercampukaduk! Dan pastinya, air mata akan bergenang-genang, menanti saat untuk tumpah ke bumi.

 

 Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku, kurniakanlah hambamu ini kekuatan dan kesabaran yang berterusan. Amin, Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin!