Yeah, smiling while hiding my sadness and PAIN certainly is not an easy task to do! Oh! I don't know! Of late, since turning 64 precisely, I find that my health condition has been like a Yo-Yo. Some days, I'll be feeling so sick and so fatigued, and on other days, I'll be a-okay and feeling on top of the world, so to speak. Since early September 2013, I've been feeling so damned rotten. My whole being felt dismally unhealthy, what with the excruciatingly aching shoulders, arms and legs. A certain brand of medicinal patches were applied on the painful spots, all over my body. These patches did their bit to dispel the discomfort. Accompanying the aches and pain, was the flatulence problem, which is equally irritating. Slatherings of medicated oil were applied, so as to achieve some measure of relief. I honestly do not know as to what exactly is going on, in and within my constitution. Most times, I feel so damned hopeless, having to contend with this 'roller-coaster' kind of feeling - feeling utterly sick, alternating with short spasms of feeling good. My confidante's (Dr H) diagnosis, made on Friday, 6th September 2013, was that my 'unstable emotional and mental being' is playing havoc with my 'physical self'. He urged me to take things easy and not to delve too much into things. My hope is that his diagnosis is correct, but then, only Allah SWT knows the real truth, and He's certainly not telling..... just yet.
Actually, I 'm trying my level best not to think too much about 'things', by keeping myself busy and really sweating it out. But sometimes, my 'chronic fatigue' gets in the way. Sigh! Nonetheless, during the times when I'm feeling good, I'll really be doing lots of things - menial and mundane chores plus my hobby-related activities, alike.
