This little quote best describes yours truly. For the longest time, I've been consumed with a lot of negative thoughts and feelings. It's not that I want things to be this way, but then, it just happens. Many a time, I've told myself to snap out of it, but I've failed miserably in all my attempts. The absolute boredom, the ever thinning patience with myself and with others and the Hopelessness of it all with a capital H are devouring me up to my very core. Aaarrgghh.....everything is so damn sickening!
The state of my health has a lot to be 'blamed' for my predicament, I reckon. Never a day passes by that I don't feel awful, what with the myriad of discomfort bugging me. The aches and the pain, the vertigo spells, the ups and the downs of my BS levels.....the whole lot lah! Having to become a 'pill-popper' is also another unavoidable bother. Like the quote says, I sometimes find myself reduced to tears!
The saddest part of it all though, is that I feel that I'm battling everything alone. Since others can still see me standing upright with no visible signs of being ill, they think that I'm absolutely a-okay. Sad, don't you think so?
The vivacious and winsome smile that hides a helluva lot of excruciating pain
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