.....Still fighting my 'demons'.....

 

 

 

Being teary-eyed, almost always

 

Conditions haven't changed much, that's for sure. Even though more than two years have lapsed since the 'fiasco', I'm still trying my level best to fight off the 'demons' that have been haunting me . It certainly has been tough for me. Despite religiously taking the prescribed medications on a daily basis, I still encounter lots of discomfort which accompany the chronic ailments that I've been blessed with. The chronic fatigue, the vertigo, the highs and the lows, the depression, the anger, the self-pity. In short, the WHOLE WORKS,  lah. SIGH!

 

I do try my utmost best to plod on with my life, each and every single day, but the hopelessness of it all still keeps on bugging me, somehow,  sometime, or other. I most definitely feel that I'm fighting a really lonely battle and it's surely not something to shout about. 

 

 

I agree with this, and I live by it

 

A very strong word, indeed!

The simple truth for yours truly!

.....Welcome 2016!.....

The first of January 2016 fell on a blessed Friday. It is fervently hoped that, for yours truly, the dawning of this new year will bring with it better blessings, in every aspect of the word (physically, mentally and emotionally) and not just mere repeats of the pain, sorrow and downright hopelessness and utter nonsense of the past! It's true that I've become accustomed to all the wretched happenings of the years gone by.....but then, enough is enough, right?

 Anyway, to commemorate the onset of this very special year, I'll include a few New Year photos plus a list of resolutions, which I hope will serve as a guide for me, in my endeavour to face 2016, straight in its face.

.....Our "Ladies' Only" Xmas Getaway.....

 

 

 

 

From Friday, 25.12.2015 till Sunday, 27.12.2015, my Princess and I went on a short trip to the Metropolitan City. Our getaway this time was "sans males of the household", and we thoroughly enjoyed ourselves, needless to say! The trip was devoid of the usual hassles, the usual sickening irritations and the usual blood-boiling whatever you may call it!

 

Anyway, we made our journey by bus, to and fro, and the three days were packed with activities like shopping, sightseeing, meeting up with Princess's friends and non-stop eating, but of course! In short, we had a well-deserved break from the usual mundane and suffocating routine!

 

I will let the following photographs tell the story.....

 

 

 

Friday, 25.12.15 - Our accommodation at Fast Hotel, Danau Kota

 

 

 

Shopping at Setapak Central

 

 

 

We had our Xmas Dinner here

 

 

 

Saturday, 26.12.15 - Breakfast at a Mamak shop

 

Lunch at KL Central

 

KLIA2 bound

 

In the KLIA ekspress train

Jalan-jalan cuci mata

 

The Xmas decor

Snoopy's house 

 

 

 

Dinner, comprising yummy kampong dishes

Sunday, 27.12.15 - Breakfast, before we headed for home



.....An aftermath.....

 

 

 

 

It'll soon be two years (November 13 2015) that I've been unfortunate enough to be plagued by two very serious maladies. Sad to admit that I'm still experiencing the utterly sickening side-effects, which are totally mind-boggling and exhausting, that much I can say. Never a day passes by that I don't experience some kind of chronic pain or another. They have become so much a part of me these days. The indescribable exhaustion and chronic fatigue, the panic attacks and the irritating bodily aches and pain. Sigh! The list is endless, actually. And the icing upon the cake has to be the declining level of self-confidence and independence in me, which totally sucks! I especially dislike the fact that I always need someone to be my 'escort', whenever I need to go somewhere. And driving the car without having someone by my side is such an ordeal these days. Also, at times I do experience short-term memory loss. Now, this is simply annoying! Well, despite everything, and as always, I treat all of these as blessings from The Almighty Allah SWT. Who am I to question His judgement, right?

.....Significant dates to remember in October 2015.....

 

 

The month of October 2015 holds several significant events for the family.....

 



 October 2 2015 - Little Nottie joined the family

 

October 9 2015 - Alfred Shoveller's latest birthday

 

October 10 2015 - Dilah's 33rd birthday

 

October 11 2015 - SMN's 45th birthday

 

October 12 2015 - Allahyarhamah Rodziah's would have been 50th birthday

 

October 16 2015 - Allahyarham Abdul Razak's 11th death anniversary

 

October 19 2015 - Rashidah's 56th birthday

 

October 20 2015 - Shazeaa's 29th birthday



 

 

 

 

.....My CA Journey - Keeping Tabs.....



Thurs, 09.06.09  - First MM

Thurs, 11.06.09  - First B

Fri,    26.06.09   - The BIG M

Wed,  29.07.09   - Fish Test

Wed, 25.11.09    - Final CT (6th cycle)

Wed , 06.01.10   - Final RT (15th fraction)

Tues,  06.04.10   - Review 1

Tues , 06.07.10   - Review 2

Tues,  27.10.10   - MM/US

Tues,  07.10.10   - Review 3

Thurs, 25.11.10  - Review 4

Tues,  22.02.11   - S/tic B

Thurs, 25.03.11  - Review 5

Thurs, 26.06.11  - Review 6

Wed,   24.08.11  - MM

Thurs, 22.09.11  - Review 7

Thurs, 22.12.11  - Review 8

Thurs, 22.03.12  - Review  9

Thurs, 12.07.12  - MM

Mon,   23.07.12  - Review 10

Wed,  21.11.12   - Review 11

Wed,  15.05.13   - SFUC1

Tues,  21.05.13   - Review 12

Tues,  11.06.13   - Anaesthetic Dept

Wed,  19.06.13   - SFUC2

 

Tues,  16.07.13  - Surgical (MM,  H/W & WLE)

Tues,  24.09.13  - Review 13

Wed,  11.09.13  - SFUC3

Wed,  12.03.14  - SFUC4

Tues,  28.01.14  - Review 14

Wed,  28.05.14  - Review 15

Thurs,10.07 14  - MM

Wed,  10.09.14  - SFUC5

Wed,  29.10.14  - Review 16 (Discharged)

Wed,  01.07.15  - MM

Wed,  08.07.15  - SFUC6

Wed,  06.01.16  - SFUC7 (next review)      

.....Our September 2015 trips to KL.....

In the merry month of September 2015, we made three trips to our Metropolitan City, Kuala Lumpur (11.9.15-12.9.15), (18.9.15-19.9.15) and (24.9.15-26.9.15). The purpose for the first two trips was to ferry back my Princess's "huge" belongings to JB. After about two and a half years, she managed to get herself relocated to JB. With effect from 14.09.15, she was posted to Jabatan Kesihatan Negeri Johor from her previous workplace, i.e Hospital Kuala Lumpur. The third trip was a family holiday, which coincided with the school semester break.

 

        Trip 1  At Princess's former office in HKL



                                  TRIP 2

                                    Trip 3